ना मैं राधा, ना मैं मीरा,  ना मैं  सीता, ना ही त्रिकुटा, 

ना तू कान्हा, ना ही तू मेरा राम, 

फिरभी तेरे सूरत में दिखे क्यों मुझे श्याम?

राम सी आभा, कान्हा सी मुस्कान 

ईस्वर सा लगे क्यों मुझे ये तेरा नाम?

तेरे इशारें मुझे भुलाये  अंजाम 

भक्ति में बस तेरे अब मेरा मान।

राधा बावरी छोड़ी संसार

मीरा का तो तू ही घरबार 

सुन सखारे मोहन प्यारे 

त्रिकुटा को अब भी तेरा है इन्तेजार। 

अंगारों पर भी पाव  ना काँपे रखने को जो तेरा मान 

हर युग में विराज वो नारी, नाम से उसे सती या फिर सीता जान 

सती न कहना, न कहना पार्वती, तो भी मेरे लिए तू चान्द्रमान 

ना भूमिजा ना त्रिकुटा, पर राघव क्यों न लू तेरा नाम?

न कहना राधा न पुकारना मुझे मीरा 

फिरवी केशव तू मेरा वही पुराना हिरा।

असम्पूर्ण।।।।

"जो पुरुष सब  कर्मों को परमात्मा में अर्पण  करके  और आसक्ति रहित हो कर  कर्म  करता है वो जल से कमल के पत्ते के भाँती पाप से लिप्त नहीं होता ." -- Geeta, 5th chapter

तेरा अधिकार केवल कर्म पर है कर्मफल पर नहीं, इसलिए तू कर्मफल का हेतु मत बन,ना ही कर्महीनता में तेरी आसक्ति हो.

"श्रेष्ठ पुरुष जैसा जैसा करते हैं, अन्य पुरुष भी वैसा वैसा ही करते हैं. वह जो कुछ प्रमाण कर देता है, समस्त मनुष्य समुदाई वैसे ही बरतने लग जाता है."--Geeta 3rd chapter

Life seems to be too tough sometimes.  Sometimes feels like, "why me always?".  But when I see myself from a global perspective, I find myself at a far better position than an average Indian girl.  At least I have some dreams for myself other than getting married to an eligible bachelor.   At least I have d courage to have dreams at the worst time of life.  I just dnt have dreams bt the courage to do actions to fulfill those dreams.  I do have the madness that encourages me to start climbing a complete unknown n steep rock. When u r in the midst of climbing the rock, u have no option than climbing up as climbing down is more difficult!  U can take rest as some1 is belaying from above.  Perhaps u cannot see the person belaying.  But have trust on the belaying.  It will nvr let u fall how much tired u may be.  Take rest and climb on again. In real life I can feel this, some1, some1 unknown, belaying from above.  This some1 possibly is called God.


Life goes through ups and downs and makes it eventful.  At least I have events to remember as part of my life.  How many ppl do have?

So it's 22nd Jan n it's time to make a new year resolution.  Yes the year is still new, it's only 22 days old.  I started making resolutions just last year. M happy as unlike ppl who make resolutions bt forget them only after some days, I tried to keep them the whole year. I admit that I cudnt follow them without fail, but I remembered them always. Whenever I broke one of the resolutions, I tried to repair them.  I donno why ppl think that a resolution broken once is broken forever. Let me first analyse how successful I was in keeping the resolutions year long.

The easier ones:

1. Don't break promises made.
2. No movie on laptop after 12 O'clock at night.

I broke only once promise made to some1 (actually to myself) once.  But after I realized that I actually broke a promise and again it was my resolution not to break promises made, I tried to repair it.

I saw some movies on laptop even after 12 O'clock, but only about 3 times, I guess.  Generally I watch movies on Saturday nights, so that the next day which is a Sunday I can have enough sleep. So it sums up to 52 movies a year. It decreased down to 3!! Isn't it good success?

Now the harder ones:

1. " कर्म किये जाओ , फल की चिंता मत करो ", I don't know what people understand by this line, but I think I understand these lines properly now.

2.  "कर्तापन को भगवान पे अर्पण करो."

3.  Control your feelings.  Is it really possible?  Yeah, indeed it is. दिल तो बच्चा है जी, प्यार से समझाओ, समझ जाता है. One way is, don't let your thoughts flow abruptly for more than 15 minutes. Pull the reins within that time limit.

I tried to keep number 1 but, I think I cudnt do it.
I was quite (not 100%) successful in number 2. The year was eventful n I succeeded through many hard paths.  Got acclaim, got praised. Sometimes I felt like "oh so I did this", I was happy n d next moment I felt like "Oh God dnt make me feel proud. I know it's U who's doing all these through me. I am just a medium, U r the one who's doing all these."
I almost nver applied that 15 minutes funda. The skill of controlling feelings was better compared to previous year. Bt still there's much way to go.

The new resolutions again will be divided into two parts, easier ones and hard ones. So the new resolutions are:


The easier ones:

1. Don't break promises made.
2. No movie on laptop after 12 O'clock at night.

3. All the works needed for PhD should be complete and I must clean the path for my PDF by the end of this year.

The harder ones:

1. " कर्म किये जाओ , फल की चिंता मत करो "

2.  "कर्तापन को भगवान पे अर्पण करो."
3. Keep cool.

Just hope to abide by all of them.

जो साधक इस मनुष्यशरीरमें, शरीर के नास से पहले पहले ही, काम-क्रोध से उत्पन्न होने वाले बेग को सहन करनेमे सक्षम है, वही योगी है, वही सुखी है.

New year is 19 days old and I have still not written my new year resolution.  I never make new year resolution, leave writing.  This time I am gonna make one and maintain it 100%.  My resolution is gonna be quite different, inspired by, mmm......... Gita, the way I understand it.  Some may think of it as peculiar.  I know how I am gonna try to spend this year.  :)

Uploaded one paper today n plan to upload one more in 2 weeks.  Keeping fingers crossed :)

कितना कुछ लिखना है, हाये!! लिख हि नहीं  पा रही हुं.  आशा करती हुं के भाबिस्व (spelling गलत है क्या?) मे इससे ज्यादा busy रहुंगी. :)


 

Happy to be daddy's gal :)