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Punashcha:  Three supernormal experiences today mornig when I went out to hv my breakfast.  These hv nothing to do with what I hv written above. Just mentioned here as these happened today only!

Met a woman, aged about 50-60. I cudn't get more approximate idea about d woman's age. She lives somewhere in Kamarhati in an abandoned (I guess) house. She said, "amar nijer bari nei, loker aashroye thaki". She has a daughter who is currently married and apparently doesnt stay with her. Her huband used to work in some jute mill (nearby Kamarhati I guess, I dnt hv much idea about d mills here). He died. Didn't ask how. She doesn't get pension, she said. I asked how she takes care of her daily expenditure like food, chothese n all. She said ppl of Kamarhati takes care of that. D day she gets food, she eats, otherwise nt. Some ppl nearby her house donates her clothes when required. While talking to her I came to know that she had broken her wrist joint. She consulted Calcutta medical college, had plaster on it, bt her bones cud nt join properly so she now a days experiences pain in her hand and is nt able to do household chores. N yes, she is 'high pressure' patient with some heart problem I guess.

What caught my attension was her mental condition. Possibly she was feeling helpless. All alone she was standing on our ISI's GLT Rd. gate. She was just about to cry. Thank God, tears didn't roll down her experienced yet cute cheek. Yeah, she was behaving like a child. May be may nt be. Sometimes almost all ppl seem like child to me. Bt one thing is clear. She is too innocent.

Meeting her was followed by two more nt normal experiences!!!
Who knows what that Person, sitting up above (or below or right or left, who knows?) is thinking or planning to do!!!!!...

MY FIRST EXPERIENCE WITH MEDITATION

My mind has become very restless these times.  As a result when it's high time that i study/work hard and prove my ability, I just don't be able to concentrate!  All sorts fo thoughts march past the playground of my mind.  While reading the paper on 'simulated annealing', I was thinking how to do some development in some part of society.  I roughly estimated how much it will cost to accomodat 2-3 ppl (helplless otherwise) in a rented house, take care of their meal and health.  If I start with the smallest possible house it may cost 2-3 thousand/month + about 2000/month for the 'aaya' as I (v) may not be able to give duty to those ppl 24*7 + food expenses and of course expenses for their healthcare including doc's visit and expenses for medicines.    This means at least 10000/month!  Quite high for a person like me who gets 15000 something/mnth and has her own responsibilities/liabilities.  I thought of forming a group of likeminded ppl who may contribute in this initiative and really feel good/happy inside for their contribution would give new life to some ppl.  Controlling our lives is only in the Almighty's hands.  But v can play it's (I have intensionally used 'it' for I dnt believe in God's gender) messenger.  Bt who's gonna think the way I am thinking.  So felt like I am thinking like a stupid.  Today when I was coming to ISI, I took the B. T. Road footpath from Bonhoogly to ISI, 203 campus.  Two ppl were lying on the footpath.  Possibly they were not dead, bt of course nt in good condition.  I just wanted to ask them why they were lying there.  Bt would it be right if they were sleeping?  Yesterday also I saw a person lying on footpath in Bonhoogly.  he had only one foot.  Bothe his legs were inflated. and the posturte of his body was saying that either he was senseless or dead. Bt I didn't do anything! I just saw and passed by.  What sould I had done as a civilian with sense of civil responsibilities.  Plz do suggest me.

By this time hope u have got an idea of how diversely spread my mind is as I was supposed to write about my 1st meditation experiecne this season!!!  I am saying 'this season' as I used to try to meditate while doing M. Sc.  Let me write about yesernight.  I tried to sit in a right posture: crossed legs, right palm on left palm, hands a little away from body, back standing erect as it helps in not getting sleepy, head slightly downwards and eyes half open.  If eyes are open, external energies may excite your mind and if they are closed, thoughts will continue to pour into ur mind.  Now tried to concentrate on observing breating pattern without trying to control it.  But, the problem is wehn we try to observe our own breathing pattern, without our knowledge, v actually try to control it!  We should try to not letting any thought come into our mind.   So v can think of any particular word/thing like 'oum'.  Tried.  Whenever I tried to concentrate on the word 'oum', my eyelids dropped gradually and as eyelids dropped all sorts of thoughts started to roam into my mind.  I gave myself some 17 mins time and set alarm after 17 mins. In 10 mins a ph call came.  So had to attend it.  After that again gave myself another 10 mins time.  This time doobell rang.  Now I asked myself to count 21 inhalations and exhalations.  I cudn't breathe properly using my nostrils as they were blocked as I caught cold.  So breathed from mouth partially.  This time I succeeded a bit.   Cud concentrate on counting the breating instaces, bt nt fully.  So tried 51 times.

Meditation is a matter of habit.  It's a process to control your thoughts and give ur mind rest  a bit.  Better luck nxt day. :)

APPENDMENT (U must be thingking, 'now what's appendment?'.  Well, it's a nown meaning appending :) ):  This post was written some 1 week ago.  Bt I cudn't find time to upload it.  Was a bit lazy. 

1.Good news is that in the same week I got a mail mentioning that some ppl here are actually thinking of doing something good for society.  Glad to know that.

2.The person with only 1 foot, I saw him 2 days ago again.  That means he was nt dead that time. :)